don't freak out, i wasn't hit by a truck.LoL sajang matakaw ako at dko mapigilan ang pagkain ng protein rich food kaya namamaga ang mga paa ko now. huhuhu sarap kasi ng baka, beans, mani saka tokwa. buong weekend ganyan ang kinain ko kaya now i'm hurting as hell. haha :)) pero ayus lang kasi masarap.. haha :))

hndi na ata ako masaya as per my last post.. haha ang gulo ko..

finally! i can see light after a series of unfortunate mishaps. naku ang hirap ng buhay na walang telephone what more if wala din internet?? anu pa kung sabay silang wala?? nakakabaliw! dko alam kung anung gagawin ko. para bang nanay ka na naghihintay sa anak mong late umuwi. i am so so so worried. "papano na ung mga social networks ko? ung ikariam ko? ym ko?" :(( basta ganun feeling. lol buti nalang ok na talaga. SUPER HAPPY AKO dahil may connection na ulit.. hahaha...

ang gulo ko.. :p

photo from http://www.istockphoto.com/file_thumbview_approve/1585009/2/istockphoto_1585009-multi-tasking.jpg

hmm.. masaya ako. :D yun lang :)) sikreto muna bakit.. hahahahahaha :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

helluva weekend!

iba na ngayon ang masasabi kong "trip" namin magpipinsan/magkakabarkada. we seldom go to loud places nowadays. mas gusto na nilang nagttalk over coffee. mejo nag grow up nadin ang mga younger cousins ko sa pagdedecide. before puro "bossa tayo" now puro "zulu nlang", "makakapag-usap kasi tayo dun" mga tipong ganyan ba. i am happy in a way kasi iwas alcohol na sila and they value ung mga talks namin now. :)

nung sat, nag decide ako together with celine na mag-zulu. kung may sasama edi better, kung wala, ok din. hindi naman kasi kami nauubusan ni cel ng pinag-uusapan eh. at saka naalala ko, never pa kami nag-argue. :)as in kahit minsan.nag cocomplement well yung personalities namin eh. :)) ayun, nauna na kami ni cel tapos sumama pa si kakay and ayesha. edi kweneto-kwento tapos joke joke. masaya. kaso kulang parin kahit papano. kasi naman nagtampo si lauren. ayun napaiwan na cia. wala din si rj kasi wala ciang pera. e pagdating sa zulu, andun friends ni lauren and rj kaya after ilan minutes sumunod na sila. dumagdag nanaman kami. pero mas masaya nga. naKrung-krung ako that night.Lol. ewan lakas tama ako nun. sabay kami ni kakay sa laugh trip.tapos lahat napapansin namin. hehe nanilip pa pala ako sa men's RR kamalasan ko lang kumekembot ung nasilipan ko..ewwwwww! we got hold of a girl's/gay's magazine. hahaha soooo funnnny. i caught my cousins drooling over bruce quebral's photo. nag noodles pala kami after sa ramyun.

kakay noh, ambata mo pa! putakels ka...hahaha :))

janlei, punasan mo laway mo..

we ended the night half wasted (sa coffee) and happy.

from l-r rocl,me,lau, cel,kakay,rj,jovy,janlei,aiko

kinabukasan naman, nagswimming kami saglit sa birthday ng lolo namin tapos went to see hot bods sa body to body sa bruno. andaming tao! nakakainis kaya we left the place early and guess where kami nagdecide pumunta-sa ZULU! yehey! haha so ayun dun kami sa cabana tumabay, kwentuhan ulit to the max. kumain ng tofu, mais, etc saka umuwi nadin agad. luluwas na kasi ung mga iba. they needed caffeine para di cguro makatulog sa byahe.lol

@ the pool

sa bruno pakami nyan... nalito na, dna alam san haharap..hehehe

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so my thoughts are scattered now. i don't know where to start. two things i'm sure of though. one is i got sunburned and second is that i'm deliberately exhausted.

i was out at around 7am. i had to drive my sister kakay to school. the trip took us about 30-45 minutes because of traffic. i had to make a miracle for us to be in time. good thing the teacher didn't caught her sneaking inside the school or else she's gonna be sent home due to her constant tardiness.

@ 8 i was buying some materials needed for my uncle's panaflex which by the way costed me more than what i could make this week. i know, i am always clumsy and this is a lesson. i should check and proofread every layout before printing. i hate myself every time i remember how gawky i am when it comes to work. lesson-learned that's all i could say. :>

i was off to the metro again at 10. i picked up mum and headed to SNF. she had an appointment with a few clients. btw, my mother is a beautician. she applied hair color, cut, blow-dried and brushed. i don't know the whole process, but she made everybody look good. :) the clients didn't held her up that much so we were on our way home at around 3:30.

we dropped by kakay's school to see if she was dismissed. anyway, it was on the way back to angeles. she won't be dismissed til 4:20 so mamew asked the teacher to allow her to go home besides they were not doing anything.

mama asked if we want to have merienda and we decided to eat at chowking. it was a tiring and warm day after all. a bowl of halo-halo would suffice whatever sugar my body need. :P after eating, i had my strands of grey hair dyed. haha i really hate it! it makes me sick : i think i had 13 grey hair at the moment and i had it all concealed one by one haha :)) vaiiiiin! while waiting for the chemicals to take effect, i took a nap. i remember having only a few hours of sleep during the morning. it was indeed a power nap. i feel so energized. :D i went to see celine after. her office was a street away from mama's shop. we chatted for a while then i went back to see if they (mama and kakay) are ready to call it a night. boy was i tired!!! i don't really have plans on blogging it. but i just did, did i? i'm so krung-krung now. lol. but i am so glad i spent time with mama. i missed her much. i love you mama :D

we look so puyat in these pics.. :<

we told mama na pang-gawa namin cia ng FB.. nagpose naman cia.. haha


just trying to see if my old look suits me.. i used to wear glasses :D



kakay & me

LAOS DEO SEMPER- i know it is the motto of Holy Angel University and that makes it sound like a cliche'. but do we really know what it means? it is a latin phrase that means PRAISE to GOD ALWAYS. i didn't know the meaning until a couple of months ago when a friend showed me a video of a guy playing drums. he puts LDS as his motto in his facebook, youtube, etc i thought he was a local guy studying at HAU who's just very loyal to the school. so i googled it and i was truly blessed when i saw what he meant. i then realized that i also have to do the same. i mean, i MUST do the same, not because i adore him but because this is the real purpose why God created us.

to praise and worship Him. :D amen!

anyway, enjoy Corbus' eargasmic drum prowess or whatever just watch.lol. :D

ohh, did i tell you his sizzling hot? hahaha i'm actually drooling hahaha jk!

you might also wanna check out his other vids at http://www.youtube.com/user/deedlebag

don't forget to subscribe to his facebook too, http://www.facebook.com/pages/Cobus-Potgieter/180748

later you guys! :):):)

monday

hey, it's monday! a fun way to start the week off is by taking photos and goofing around.. :)

happy monday y'all...

to a great week! cheers! :D:D:D

we have a different way of eating dinner nowadays, we have it ala picnic style with matching banig pa. i find much more fun than the usual table and chair setting because you get the feeling that you can be yourself and sit in whatever position you like. 

we were having mashed potatoes and burger steak.. an american dinner matched with a pinoy setting..lol

Let Me Fall

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all
Wasn't I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I've been running from...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I've become much too good at being invincible
I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived...

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all

by Bethany Joy Lenz/One Tree Hill

Let Me Fall - Bethany Joy Lenz

this is WAR!

my greatest fear occurred this morning. up to now i still get chills down my spine whenever i imagine the bloodshed that i've been through earlier. the clash between humans and vermin was initiated by my irrational enthusiasm of spraying Baygon on their so called habitat aka our kitchen cabinets, baseboards, sinks, etc. at 2 in the morning.

i am really scared of this pest. i don't know why but i really and i mean really hate to see roaches crawling up beneath, behind, beyond, over--- they are everywhere and that makes me sick! they are slowly invading our lives by scavenging what's left of our homes. i only slept for 2 hours because whenever i close my eyes a disgusting bug crawls and disrupts my peace. grrrrrr! vengeance is really mine this time! bwahahhahahahahaaha >:)

can u count kun ilan sila?

support group

ok, so last night i was broke-n. but now, it is a new day, a new beginning and a new start. thank God for making me realize some things. now i feel better than ever. i'll just let the negative thoughts die and stick with what's positive.

=+=+=+=+=+

last night, i was desperate to meet with my ever loyal "support group" founder Celine. she calms me down when things get out of hand. she gives me advise without judging my irrational decisions and she rides with my food cravings.aha indeed, she has been a real friend. we've been friends for 11 years now. :D i am so grateful to have her by my side. :)):))

we went to melo's last night, a restaurant/canteen near AUF. i was so delighted with how the food tastes like. the menu offers a twist in the traditional way of cooking chicken. they debone chicken breasts, fry it and then top it with a sumptuous sauce and corn and cheese... hmm, i tried the mexican chicken. it was real yummy. in fact, i brought some home. :) i am planning to go back there and try their other dishes if i have time and company. :D

mexican chicken ala melo's

we also tried the krazy cup's frozen yogurt located beside R&B. it didn't pass my standards. haha sorry po, hindi masarap. it lacked that spoiled milk taste. :P parang gatas lang-na hindi sira! nyaaaa :p :p i didn't mean to be rude, i am just being honest... :D ever loyal na talaga ako sa whitehat... :P mabait ang crew saka very accomodating sila. they even lent me and celine their extra aprons.. :P:P:P

can i get your order, sir?

our 1st time at whitehat

oooh btw, my blog just had a total make-over.. :p:p:p

aha, i still don't feel that good. whatever.

blah blah blah :<:<:

this may be my last post. to my readers, thanks so much for the support and the time. i really appreciate your efforts.

i will go home tonight. i will go home and i don't think i'll ever come back-unless pagusapan ng maigi ang sitwasyon.tatalikuran ko na lahat. i feel tired. alam ko wala akong karapatan na sabihing pagod ako dahil wala naman akong ginagawa maghapon kungdi maglaro at magtrabaho ng konti pero ung puso ko pagod na dahil dko alam kung may kapupuntahan din ang mga efforts ko. i think it is better this way. hindi ung nabigay ko na buong pagkatao ko tapos wala parin. atleast i still have a little strength in me to start my life all over and pick up the broken pieces. sabi nga nila "u win some, u learn some" and i will definitely learn in this situation. i have a heavy heart right now and i am crying. maraming kokontra at hindi sasang-ayon sa desisyon ko, pero sa palagay ko susundan ko na muna puso ko this time. hindi na ang utak ko. from there tignan natin, malay natin...

the Lord know the desires of my heart and in His time he will grant those...i just have to be faithful...

i know it won't be easy pero i know kakayanin ko. sana kayanin ko. God bless me. :c

"kahit bato, nabibiyak din :'c"

Just a FUN thought...

i just wish we could do this riding a more comfortable vehicle.

sawa nako ke pogi.hahaha

If ever you are going on a road trip...

You can bring 6 people, who are they?

Person One: Celine Crudo

Person Two: Lauren Spillers

Person Three: Joanna Santos

Person Four: RJ Spillers

Person Five: Bonnamie Lomio

Person Six: Janice Vergara

saka si Gio...

Where are you guys headed for?

La Union, Baguio, basta sa northern part of the Philippines

You rent a van, where is everyone sitting and who is driving?

ako ang driver liwasan kami ni RJ so siya din ung katabi ko tapos sa likod na lahat..

IN THE MORNING:

Who is late?

Lahat late lalo na si lauren! hahaha

Who brought the most luggage?

dko alam.. haha kasi i'm still trying to know ung iba.. i think si celine haha

Who came with no luggage at all?

ako, si lauren and rj. recycle nalang ng damit! haha

Who got car sick?

malamang, wala lol!

Who makes you pull over so they can go pee in the woods?

ako! hahaha

LUNCHTIME:

You stop for lunch, where at?

fastfood for sure. maybe KFC or mcdo

Who spills their soda in the van?

janice haha wala ng tanong tanong!

Who forgets their food under the seat and causes an ant problem?

lauren haha

AT THE HOTEL:

You rent 2 rooms, each have 2 double beds but only one has an extra cot.

Where does everyone sleep?

Double bed 1: Me, lauren and celine

Double bed 2: janice, bona and joanne

Cot: RJ

but we'll probably stay and chat sa isang room muna then punta nalang sa kabila pagka matutulog na..

IN THE MORNING:

Who complains that the bagels are moldy?

Janice

YOU GO TO AN AMUSEMENT PARK:

Who goes on roller coaster?

lahat kami pwera si janice,KJ! hahahah

Who sits on the merry-go-round the whole time?

uhm, wala?

Who goes straight to the snack bar and gets a large popcorn, some cotton candy, and order of fries?

RJ and me :)):))

BACK AT THE HOTEL:

Who wants to get drunk?

ako,rj,lau and cel.. :D

Who goes right to sleep?

Janice haha

Who's kissing?

ewan..malamang wala?

Who's crying because they want to go home?

syempre wala.. freedom! haha

THE NEXT MORNING/GOING HOME:

Who cries because they didn't want to go home?

Kaming lahat...

Who enjoys themselves greatly.

Kami paring lahat.

got the questions from Joanna's blog.. you can check it out, just hit the joanna santos button at the lower right part of my page..

forget about her

I will love you everyday.....
(Ohhh...yeah... Can I tell You?...Ohhh..)
We have a good thing, and you know it's true
No matter what happens, I'll be there for you

Ima do whatever.. it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
Tell me, if you're ready and you want this too
Cuz im gonna make you forget about her

ima do whatever..it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
There's only one thing that I know I'm gonna do
Im gonna make you forget about her

When I met you.. you was cold as ice
Doing whatever just to catch your vibe
But I can see mine was somewhere else
Or maybe thinking of somebody else

I know.. that maybe she was all your world
and baby, you would never trust another girl
i told you once, and i'm sayin it again
Im gonna make you forget about her

Ima do whatever.. it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
Tell me, if you're ready and you want this too
Cuz im gonna make you forget about her

ima do whatever..it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
There's only one thing that I know I'm gonna do
Im gonna make you forget about her

Forget about those nights when she put out in the cold
the way she never respected the things you've given to her just let her go
forget about the way she broke your heart and told you lies
she had a good thing. she couldn't bring you love

I will love you everyday ( everyday)
make all your pain just go away
we have a good thing and you know it's true
no matter what happens i'll be there for you

I will love you everyday ( everyday)
make all your pain just go away
we have a good thing and you know it's true
no matter what happens i'll be there for you

Ima do whatever.. it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
Tell me, if you're ready and you want this too
Cuz im gonna make you forget about her

ima do whatever..it takes, my love
Forget about the past and be your only one
There's only one thing that I know I'm gonna do
Im gonna make you forget about her

Forget About Her - Sophia Maria