last week i was so upset with my sister. she asked us kindly if we would want to hire her during the semestral break. kind that i was, she got the job. i have computed how much she'll be earning for the days that she's working. she told me, she'll be staying with us for 22 days. so i have somehow planned some fun things to do. i was hoping to get close to her like we used to. we were happy before, when life was simple and less complicated. i guess i was the only one happy. so she never came on time and after a couple of absences without notice, i blew it up. i got mad (sa sarili ko lang) and i told her...
me: star, kung hndi kana makakapasok, ibibigay ko na lahat ng sweldo mo wag kanang pumasok.
sister: ok ganun nalang.
that's her only reaction. without any excuses why she was absent or late. hndi ako makwentang tao. ayaw ko lang na nagtatake advantage sakin ung mga tao. of all people, ung mga close pa sakin. from then on, we haven't had a descent conversation. i am still upset. i feel so bad. i know, i know, i am older and i should be the one to understand. kaso, nakakasawa na lang.
sa mga ganyang sitwayson regarding my siblings, i always feel na talo ako. ako parati ang nagbibigay. ako parati ang nagpapsencya. maybe that is one reason why i left them. i think im right after all.
also she is keeping secrets with me. she's a grown up now and that is her choice but i just want things to be fair. a relationship is a two-way street, hndi pwedeng panay one-way ang daan. haaay, i feel sooooo down now. sobra. sana lang hindi siya manhid. i remember before, when we were still young, natiis ko ciang hindi kinausap for about two months. as in hndi talaga ako ang nag-iinitiate ng usapan. palagay ko, i can still do that now. bahala na.
masama ba ako for them to treat me like this?
it's not even a matter of who's evil or who's more evil... it always depends on your intentions, if you intend to hurt her as much as she hurted you i guess it is for you to judge ku masama ka ba o hindi... and if your intention is to give her a lesson, then you are just being a BIG sister... as simple as that.
ReplyDeletesiblings are meant to quarrel or make tampo. "that's our job" (or sumthing lyk that) sabi nga ni Lilo kay Nani (watch Lilo & Stitch).
ReplyDeletelike you said, she's still young.. pero nasa tama ka in putting some discipline into her nuts. she intended to work kaya cya nanjan, pero she just wasn't responsible enough...not enough to let u know na ayawa na pla nya pumasok.hehe ..paluin mo. :p
but, i wouldn't really know 'coz i'm an unica hija...for 25 years. my half sis is just 2 y/o. batukan ko pa yun e! :p haha
~ aybee (lurk, lurk, lurk)