IRONIC

i just missed this song... i was in the 6th grade when i first heard it.. u guys enjoy!! kampai! :))

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

blah blah blah

<<<---this tab has been opened for i think two hours now. i can't think of anything to write about. c'mon brain, think. wag mo naman akong ipahiya... ... .... ..... my weekend was kind of fun, nakakalungkot, i don't know how to explain it well. i was feeling sick kasi last sat. i had slight fever and i was frequently chilling. but anyway, my untimely illness didn't get in the way of me having fun.
our "shotting spree" last sat was never planned. in fact, hindi pa kami pwede mag happy-happy because we just lost someone close to us recently. so when we finally decided to drink, mejo hinay-hinay lang ang pagsasaya, we didn't even play songs that were too loud or super-todo-house-music.
i enjoyed the night away. i puffed some cigar in between shots. after i think 5 years, this was the time that i inhaled that deadly smoke in my lungs. the night was sooo much fun. my weak feeling was gone and i started to feel tipsy. i am feeling numb. sometimes i miss that feeling-when you begin to feel careless about the world and the people around you. i started to realize that i am just human. i've got no super powers and extra abilities. i get tired, i feel sleepy, get hungry. it is a very good idea that atleast twice a month me and my PS cousins meet. it would be a very good outlet for me. i can say whatever to them without fearing that i'll be judged, i will be accepted no matter what, there would be no barrier separating our differences-i can be CARELESS with them(in a good way though)
some pics of our recent-unplanned-drinking-party....
biggest bro: alam nyo, shhhhh, wala munang maingay... may sasabihin ako. alam nyo, wish ko lang na sana ganito parin tayo. nung nawala si Angkong diba sunod sunod mga meetings natin. Sana hindi mawala ang shamahan natin... shhhh*t. (lashing nako guys ^^)

us: oo, we agree/cge next week sagot ko na limang gsm/d pwede midterms/next next week nalang/basta minimum of once a month/etc/ang lamok dito/hilo nako/

biggest bro: tatandaan nyoooo, blood ish thicker than water....

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PS=shorcut for paksyit. a term of endearment that we magpipinsans use.
shotting spree=sounds like shopping spree, nice to the ears, hehe :D
shorcut=shortcut for shortcut..lolz..im just messing with u guys..

"mas makapal and dugo sa tubig"

-r

money for my lola

for the past week, i have been missing a big part of me. ama, as she was fondly called by many is now with the Lord. anyway, enough of this drama... life must go on! and that's what i am preparing myself for. while we were at the wake, my mom, aunts and uncles were deciding on whether we do it chinese style or the traditional filipino style. my lola was chinese but she didn't live her life as a chinese. she was a kapampangan by heart. all her friends were cabalens. she spoke the vernacular like it's her native tongue. finally, my family decided to do it "halo-halo" style. hehehe =P a mix of fil-chi customs.
we decided to give her the joss money also known as the ghost money. we had custom made a stamp that bears her name. all the paper money had her name on it. when i asked why, mom said so that "angkong (lolo) might get it and use it." huwaaaaaat??! may ganun ganun pa pala..anyway, i helped in the money making process, that is folding the special paper into a lumpia like shape. lolzz =)) here is the output....dandandandan (drum roll)
ama is rich now. i think we have made a million for her. i personally believe that when a person joins our Creator, wala na siyang kakailanganin. andun na lahat. basta i respect whatever my ancestors believe. basta walang affected, go ako! hehee

bittersweet emotions

it's been a week since i posted something. my week was a rough one. i had to accept a loss of a loved one and i have to bear with some problems regarding my work/business.
ama just passed away. i am preparing myself for that moment, but not this soon. i knew of her illness about 2 months ago. and i did not realize that it could all be over in 2 months time. surely, i will miss her. she's been so good to me, i am afraid that i was not able to give back the love that she has shown me. i remeber, when i was still in elementary, she used to fetch us from school.while driving her orange gemini car she would take us to fast food chains or drive us home. she was there with me through it all. when i was at my lowest times, she was there.ama was not that showy, she would not say "i love you" often but i know, she loves us all. she may not show it by holding my hand, but through her actions it show. i feel bad that i did not say anything to her when she was at the ICU. i wanted to kiss her badly, but i can't. she look so fragile. so soft. i just held her. i can't say any word. i felt that the world stopped for me but i can't express what i'm truly feeling. that night, i waited... i patiently waited for the clock to tick and reach 1am-2am. the doctor said that this would be her departure time. 2:30 came and all i remember is we were all rushing to the hospital. it only took me 3 minutes to reach the hospital from my office. i don't know how i drove that fast. all i know is i need to be there before she leaves us.it was past 4 when she totally let go.
i am trying to move on now. i know, that only time can heal my wounds. i will always remember her. sometimes, i cry... i don't know what to feel. i know that she is happy now. no more pains, no more meds. only eternal joy and happiness.

crazy sunday afternoon

it is a usual sunday afternoon when we decided to head for the grocery. while strolling along the aisles, i found something that caught my eye. it made me want to take it home with me. i can't though. kinapalan ko nalang talaga ang mukha ko and said, "kuya, papicture tayo..." hahaha, i am so embarassed pero it is worth it. it is not everyday that you see a face like his.

we headed for the best (for me) italian resto i know-SBARRO... i was really drooling over their baked zitti and their pizza... hmmmm, so delicioso! this is the food that i won't get tired of eating. kahit araw-araw go ako! kaso lang, i am not that rich that rich..hehehe.. maybe 3x a week lang.. lol :))

after the heavy meal, we decide to watch dark knight. it was a nice movie but i don't find it suitable for kids. violence played a major role in the movie. the bombing, the killings, it is not good for kids. they may like it but they don't know how it could affect their way of thinking. anyway, the movie was great i liked it! and i wanna watch it again, i will watch it again, rather.. mr. ledger was very convincing. too bad he is not here to appreciate the praises the world has for him. also the movie was long, it's i think 2.5 hours kinda long if you are used to watching the regular 1.5 hours. moreover, the movie is superb... :))

worthless money

have u ever felt na may pera ka nga, di mo naman magamit? that's how i felt nung sat, i still have p200 sa bag kaso i can't think of a way to use it. the BITCH kasi,spitz took the money and chewed it. tgnan nyo...

that bitch! atleast i could call her that cuz she's indeed a bitch-a female dog... waaa sayang ang pera..:(

cont: party

i was so busy yesterday hindi ko man lang naopen ung blog ko.. sumisimple nanaman ako now, while working...hehe ayun, nung party i really enjoyed kasi yun nga, my HS friends were there. kahit na 3 nalang kaming natira out of i think 8, enjoy parin. maybe because, we have very different personalities. as in! ako un magulo na joker, then si chie naman ung pakikay na masayahin, si cel naman ang gadget techie na quiet sa amin. cge na, aaminin ko na... kaya we jive together kasi we have one common denominator. basta secret nalang un kasi baka kainisan nyo nako and my friends..hehehe my family was also there that night. actually, ung 26th of july is my youngest sister's birthday talaga, ayun naisip ko narin na we celebrate nalang together. para mejo tipid si mama, same visitors din naman kasi ang darating db?

so ayan na ung mga pix, i've put them together sa photoshop kasi if i upload them separately, bukas nako matatapos... lol :)) btw, did i post naba regarding my 1st visit sa cofi acad? d pa ata, anyway, nung 1st visit ko that was nung 27th ayan u can see the pic. i ordered a caramel iced coffee, so ayun ineenjoy ko ang moment then suddenly sh*t,f*ck,@%$#*&^% may BUBOG ung drink ko!!!!!!!!! kainis talaga... buti nalang pinalitan nila. kung hindi talaga aawayin ko sila.. hahahha.. di na ako babalik dun. once is enough, twice is too much and thrice is deadly..hahaha.. :D